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23 June 2005
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oh my. i'm in no mood at all tu do any of my work. ):i'm spending all my time, thiking about him.gosh. i miss him. i miss his sms. i miss his care. i miss his laughter. i miss his smile. i miss his hugs. i miss his kisses. i miss "us" i miss him. ): it aint a good thing. i'm feeling sorry for myself. i'm feeling sorry for her. i feel guilty. like i'm snatching away him from her. although he's only in my mind. but still, hais. homework load is piling up. alot of it. and i'm having this camp tmro. guides camp. fer twu days. and i HAVTA finish my work tudae. burn the midnight oil, not sleeping. like what i did yesterday. ): i'm deprived of fun, sleep, care. i don't wanna go back tu skol. i don't. i wanna sit home. trap myself. not going out. not even going out from my room. -2nd floor- he fills my mind. ): i wanna end all the fights or quarrel wit ma mom. i don't want anything. i want a LIFE lyk HIS. carefree. rich. able to go out at night. sleepovers. privacy is his. going out wit the opp gender, is no prob for him. i wan a LIFE LIKE DAT. now, going out wit male FRIENDS, also hard. havta lie, and cheat. and i wanna be smart like him. sleep in class. daydream. yet,able to have the discipline to study at night, producing amazin results. and i wanna be like him. not caring abt the other gender's fantasies towards him. being totally unsensitive. i wanna be lyk dat. so i wont be hurt. -d0orbell- 0h yeah. i'm an exc0 member n0w. i feel s0 wierd. i dydnt even g0 f0r the interview. n0t that i care wht people say but, it seems like i g0t this r0le, c0x i'm cl0se t0 yaya. i feel bad and ashamed t0 the 0thers wh0 were enthusiastic ab0ut the interview. h0ping they'll get a r0le. -embarassed- out fr0m here. yana.=) |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
affiliates
ayn
bani
complexite
dynn
erdiah
ekah
fizah
jass
joyce
maz
matt
nisa
nette
raz
yaya |